Have you ever looked back at your prior self and thought, "That was me?!"
Yesterday, one of my brothers and I got into an argument. He ended up saying that all women are heartless bitches. At that point, I stuck up for myself and told him to quit generalizing sexes.
Anyway, today I was feeling nostalgic and went browsing through my email from over 7 years ago. Back then, I had a friend, best friend, who was in love with me. I was engaged to my soon-to-be ex-husband so I never explored what could of happened. Regardless, some of the emails I read were to and from this friend... and holy shit, I was a heartless bitch!
Maybe my brother is right? Hmm...
So I continued to read everything from back then and I felt as if I was reading someone else's words. The person who wrote and responded to all those emails was so passionate, energetic, ambitious, and sometimes just downright mean, but only because she thought it was for the good of the situation. It's odd because, that's how I would like to describe myself now, but...
If you know me today, truly know me, you'd probably describe me as dismissive, sad, sarcastic, broken, and lonely. Is it because I'm no longer 25? Or am I just a bitter woman who's had her heart broken so many times by the same person, I lost who I was? Am I just more mature? Or does my life just suck right now?
I want to get back to who I was back then, but I don't know how. Am I lost forever?
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